Immemorial Musing

I’ve been thinking more and more lately about a certain part of my mind, and how it probably isn’t something that other people experience.

It is pretty difficult to put into words, and I’ve only tried putting it into words a couple times in my life. But, this broad range of thoughts is something I’ve experienced for as long as I can remember. As far back as my memory goes when I was a child too.

I feel like I should say that it’s not a negative or intense thing, it just feels like other people would think it’s peculiar.

Ok.

So, for a brief explanation first, I have always felt like my physical self does not match my mental self in reality. That might sound confusing, and, trust me, it’s confusing in my own head too. I also feel like as I’ll continue to try explaining it with words, the crazier, or at least more abstract, it will sound.

It’s as if my body, my physical being, isn’t the way I perceive life. I feel like that might be relatable to an extent actually. But, it feels like I really am my soul, like I am my inner self just inside a shell.

You know, I’m starting to tell myself that this might be more relatable than I thought, but I’m not sure. If you’re comfortable sharing, I’d love to hear if anyone relates to this.

That’s it for now. This is a pretty profound topic in my mindscape, and it already feels like a lot to think about. I’m sure I’ll dive into this topic more in the future.

-Immemorial Musing