Immemorial Musing

It’s been quite a while again.

It’s so hard to do the simplest of things. Not that writing here is simple, but it is easier than most things in a technical way.

This has been my general issue for a long time now. Time.

I just cannot make time. It’s baffling to me, even if it is my own mind.

I don’t do anything. I’ll admit it. I engorge myself in basic comfort and superficial contentment. I fill my time with leisure, and the rest of my time is mental overload and anxiety.

Still, I don’t even make time for the things that I normally like. Games, shows, music, even scrolling on social media. I’ve fallen behind on all of my interests to the point where I am years behind now.

In actuality, I know why this is.

Guilt.

I feel overwhelming guilt for not doing anything. I feel like I’m not worth my own time, and I’m not worth enjoying things.

I don’t really know what to do. This new mental awareness has been the hole that I have fallen into since my last post.

Hopefully I can figure something out, and then I can make time for another post sooner.

-Immemorial Musing