Immemorial Musing

I’ve just been struggling to do anything lately.

My mind is so set on using time only for leisure that I can’t force myself to do things.

I have all these ideas, but I don’t have the drive to do them.

Even if I have things set up, I then find myself unable to actually start anything.

There’s simply too much in my mind.

Too much negativity, too much self-doubt, too much nihilism, too much depression, too much wasted time.

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Also, if you saw and remember in my last posts, I talked about finally doing a mental health diagnosis assessment.

The first session was just an introduction of myself to the professional and an overall feeling for what’s next.

Now, after all this time, the actual testing is this week.

I have been so overly excited for this. All I have wanted for so long is just proof that I have been struggling.

Struggling in ways that most people don’t understand.

It will still be another week or so after the tests, but just doing them is going to be interesting.

-Immemorial Musing