Immemorial Musing

I’m tired, but I don’t want to sleep.

I don’t want it to be tomorrow.

I want this comfort forever, this feeling that I have all to myself.

No one understands, but no one needs to.

In here, I don’t need anyone.

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So why do I want other people out there?

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How can there be two completely opposite feelings in the same person?

I always prefer to be alone,

but I always want to not be alone.

I’m only truly comfortable by myself,

but I want the comfort of others.

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I feel like I’m just not made for certain things in life. It’s like I was doomed from the start.

-Immemorial Musing