Immemorial Musing

I hate jealousy.

I hate how jealous I get.

I hate how often I feel jealous.

Jealousy ruins all of my dreams, and erases my motivation.

I get so toxic when I’m jealous. I hate seeing other people succeed in something I’ve dreamt about my whole life. Whether I’ve tried to pursue it or not, and even if I’ve never put in any work at all, I get immediately filled with rage.

I can’t go on social media or even listen to music without getting some feeling of jealousy anymore.

I honestly don’t know what to do about it. It’s torture to see so many people be successful or happy, with “why not me?” being my first thought uncontrollably.

-Immemorial Musing