Immemorial Musing

Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

These two things each have their own unbreakable grip on my life.

These are two of the biggest storm clouds over my head.

These two things have brought the worst feelings to me in times of insecurity and uncertainty.

I cannot answer the question.

I hate the past. I hate remembering it.

“What if” has become a traumatic phrase to think of itself, just from how much I have tormented myself with hypothetical scenarios throughout my life.

I’m scared of the future. I don’t want to see it.

I have so much fear for the next phase of my life, that I have always missed out on enjoying my current phase I’m living in.

I really can’t answer. I spend too much time on both, together and apart.

-Immemorial Musing