Immemorial Musing

I’m surprised it’s taken me this long to write about the topic of sleep. At least this is the first time that sleep is the focal point of a post.

Something else that is interesting because of this is that this is the first time I am writing from my phone and not my computer, since I am currently in bed avoiding sleep.

Sleep has been an absurdly complicated topic for me throughout my life. To start, I have always had insomnia. I remember being a child and having trouble sleeping, and, as I’ve gotten older, it’s gotten harder and harder to sleep.

I have such a terrible combination of sleep issues. I don’t want to sleep at night and then I wake up feeling more tired than before I slept. I’m not sure what makes me so tired when I wake up, but I’ve had my own guess for a long time now.

I wish I didn’t dream. My dreams are commonly complex or stressful in some way. At this point, a few of my more memorable negative moments in my life are from dreams. Just a few.

Over the years though, and now in my adult life especially, I’d rather not even sleep because I’m afraid of dreaming.

Ugh, I’m not even sure of how cohesive this post is sounding. Between how late it is for me and this being the first post from my phone, I think I’m going to leave this post here. Hopefully I get sleep and you do too.

-Immemorial Musing